today, my other half and i have been together officially for 371 beautifully interesting and surreal days.
i've known him for 3,560 days. 9 years, 10 months and 21 days.
41 days ago, i nearly left him.
when i look at our relationship, i don't just count the last three-hundred and seventy-one days. i think about the whole of the time he's been in my consciousness.
my current relationship, if you didn't know, is with Muffin. he's been my one-and-only soulmate for the last almost-ten years and has never, ever left my mind. he's been a source of many beautiful and horrible thoughts and memories and the fact that we are finally together after all the years of false-starts and broken hearts (awww, poet and didn't know it, hey?) is still completely baffling to me. so many moments during the day force me to stop and remind myself that this is really real. that Muffin and i are finally together and this has the potential of being forever if we both put our minds to it.
although there have been hideous times and broken emotions, today and for the last forty-one days, i feel more confident about us than i ever have about anything else. he's a special and magnificently loving person that knows just as much as i do that this is a once-in-a-lifetime thing that cannot be taken for granted, but rather tenderly nurtured and embraced.
we now both know exactly how important this companionship is and are willing to do anything we can to make sure that we don't lose it. we will give one another anything and everything we can to make each day just as special as the last.
we talk more and better and for the first time in my life i am in a relationship that feels like it is going to be forever... no doubts. no sense of doom. just love. absolute, complete
love. this is no doubt going to be a relationship that lasts until both of us are dead and gone. i'm in this for THAT kind of forever.
