eh, i have a lot on the mind. like, not very important things, but
things that have my heart weighed down right now. it is tired. i am
tired. i just woke up this morning and felt... BLAH. my eyes are heavy
and arms seem to be too much to lift at times. i just want to lay in bed
all day and be a beast. or, at least until ashley phones. but i need to
go do a few things. i am hoping i can get a hold of keving eventually
today. eh, we will see. my dad has not emailed me yet and that bothers
me some, but then i have to remember the serenity prayer and let it go.
"GRANT
ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE, THE COURAGE TO
CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE."
i
need to remember that a lot in my life lately. with the trip and my
money and chris and his school. with everything. there are so many
things i cannot change and i need to just deal with it... it is so
difficult for me sometimes though. i want to have control over
everything that is going on right now... and i need to let it go. i am
trying to with lots of things. i am outta here.
