we have a LOT of catching up to do. and A LOT of making out.

Who was your last text from?
my beautiful little bag of jaacq! and i quote, 'i am very well, angel. just very busy rehearsing for the upcoming shows. we have a LOT of catching up to do. and A LOT of making out. are you taking good care of yourself? precious cargo there! i love you. xx' i love my jaacqy more than most things in the world.


When was the last time you saw the person you fell hardest for?
march 6th 2002. won't be long until our next meeting though and it WILL be epic.


Are you nice to people you dislike?
i am generally nice to everyone in the world. i can be a little offish if i feel i have been wronged, but i never shoot the first bullet.


Was this summer a good one?
um... it has been a saucy mixture. overall, it was ALRIGHT, i guess. a lot of prancing with pow pow occurred, which is always glorious.


Honestly do you miss someone?
i miss a LOT of someones, a few in particular. i miss my janey, my jaacqy and my danish muff.


What are you currently looking forward to?
umm... danish coming online **stomps foot**, my birthday and the possible visit from my danish muffin.


You kissed someone today, didn't you?
not a soul... wait, i think i might have snuck a cheeky one on hannah's face when i saw her in town this afternoon.


When did you last receive a text message?
two days ago. from my jaacqy! i received it mid-conversation with iraq, it was a magical moment. BOTH my favourite boys at once!


Do you have any plans for the weekend?
not so far. i have been toying with the idea of going out, but we'll see what occurs.

You receive $50 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
ohhh... well, that only equates to about thirty quid and i would most likely spend it on the parcel i will be sending to iraq tomorrow.


Where did you get the pants you are wearing from?
oh lord... i THINK i got them from... no, i'm not even going to venture a guess, i have no idea. i've had them ages. i bought them in england, that is all i know.


Who do you go to when you REALLY need to talk to someone?
it tends to be danish lately. him or janey.


What is wrong with you right now?
my hands feel like they are made of ice and danish is not here... he SHOULD be!


How well do you know the last female you texted?
well, funny you should ask. i JUST sent a text to vic, who i know better than i know most people. she is a magnificent creature.


Were you single on your last birthday?
i was not, actually. only barely.


Are you happy with life at the moment?
i think overall things are fairly lovely. obviously, i wish this blasted divorce would just be over with and danish was HERE, but these things will come with time.


Who was the last person who called you?
**squee** danish rang me this morning just before i left into town. we discussed who loved who more and i won, as per usual.


How long does it take you to fall asleep at night?
to be honest, i'd say it only takes me about three minutes if i really put my mind to it, but i heart thinking and get myself all worked up and distracted some nights.


How many people have you had strong feelings for in the year of 2009?
i have strong feelings for people CONSTANTLY. thus is the plight of a girl that exists wholly on her emotions.


Have you had any beer this week?
not at all. danie and beer do not mix well.


Does anyone disgust you?
some people do, yes. i have a particularly sour taste in my mouth at the moment surrounding a few creatures.


Do you know how it feels to be cheated on?
mmm, and he apologizes.


Is your best friend single?
this is hard, as danie has LOTS of best friends. ashley is not, janey is not and danish... ummm... isn't?


What are you doing for your next birthday?
**squee** oh there will be a party and there will be bands and there will be epic cupcakes and oh so much prancing. it will be the most glorious of nights!


Do you regret anything?
not one single thing.


Would you date someone right now if they asked?
only three people. two of which are only allowed as per a verbal contract drawn up by myself and danish... these creatures are henry rollins and that 1 guy.


Who are all the texts in your inbox from?
ae you freaking kidding me? okay, here we go!
jaacq
first care
christopher butcher
mark dixon
bee
jak
janey
slim
kelly holmes
meek
hannah zair
john samsworth
alex bowen
eleanor field
lee lee
orange mobile
pow pow
dave
charlie
myself (i send myself texts to remind myself of things i'm worried about forgetting)
lee lee's old phone
tattoo kevin


When was the last time someone called you sexy?
why just earlier today, actually. my danish has taken to referring to me as that.


Have you ever kissed somebody driving?
i have kissed people who HAVE been driving, but as i am not a driver myself, i have not.

Are you a jealous person?
i CAN be, given certain circumstances.


Does playing the guitar make a girl/guy more attractive?
in some odd way, yes.


Do you consider yourself lucky?
mmm, overall, yes, i do.


Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay?
never, EVER.


Do you believe in love at first sight?
oh yes, like woah.


Have you ever talked about marriage with another person?
heh, oh yes. obviously, with chris. danish and i muse about it on occasion.


Do you want kids?
not anymore, no.

sneak attack for the I love you more win!!!!!!

god... i want to do this now because tomorrow i will be a busy, busy bee... things in the last couple of days have been made of glory and magnificence for the most part.

like, i still feel quite low and am not really eating or sleeping. the divorce is still really affecting me in a big way but there are these magnificent little balls of glitter that are growing ever-larger each day...

let me show you them... things danie hearts...

• Him... literally, i feel like a schoolgirl again. the excitement and glee and OMGYAYness that happens just when his little icon pops up when He comes online makes my heart ache. He makes me laugh until i cry and makes me feel so loved and special and magical and... it's just magical. we talk throughout the day and we talk about EVERYTHING. i can talk to Him about my family and work and my illness and my clothes and my everything and He listens and actually acts interested. we are still at 85% for Him coming, but it's all down to if He gets His passport in time. god... He has just made all of this crap that i'm going through here at home so much easier. He is just a glorious creature and i am so happy that He seemed to have magic'd His way back into my life just when i needed Him most. 
• Dexter... for FUCK'S sake! i downloaded all the seasons aaaages ago and finally got around to watching the first season a few days ago. OMG. i literally can't get enough of it. it's like desperate housewives and csi had a beautiful baby. i heart it ever-so much and am in the middle of season two now... **squee**
• MY BIRTHDAY!! oh yes, it is a mere nineteen days away and i am literally crapping my pants with excitement. every day i get a little more excited because something else comes together or someone else confirms they're coming. it is going to be a night of epic proportions and will be talked about for years to come. 
• smoking fags... oh yes, i know it is a terrible vice to have, but i loves it ever so much. i am trying to get as much of it in as possible now as i plan to quit the monday after my birthday (so as to allow me ample chainsmoking time with my janeyface before she leaves!)
• stretching my ears... this has always been a favourite, but today it reached new highs when my ears became the new owners of the sexiest tunnels that were ever made. they are covered in rhinestones and make me feel all glitzy!
• talking to my grandparents... so yes, i am the prodigal granddaughter. they love me and dote on me, so my telephone call to them last night was a magical experience for all involved. it was the first time i had spoken to them since i was in america last and it was really nice. typically, when i ring them they get all awkward and hate that i'm spending money ringing them, but this time was different. i talked to my grandma for a while and then she passed me on to my grandpa. he's quite ill at the moment. has something called chronic obstructive pulmonary disease (COPD), so he's all wheezy and coughs a lot. i told him i was getting a divorce and he immediately asked if i was moving back. i told him that i would be, as soon as i had the money saved up and he was all but glee'ing over the phone. i told him i would be moving back at the end of next year and would most likely live in colorado, to which he exploded with delight, saying that would mean he'd get to see me more. i'd like to see them a lot. that's one of the reasons He and i want to live in colorado, that way we're close to His kids and my family. my grandparents are old and i'd want to go visit them as often as possible. it will be lovely. 
• embroidering... oh yes, embroidering has become my new bff... i have been working on an amazing little project for Him and it is almost finished. it has taken all of my freestyle embroidering skillz to the next level and for that i am pleased! 
• washing my face... nothing is quite so relaxing as washing my face at the end of the night. pulling out one of my gloriously-scented face wipes and giving my cheeks and forehead the old once-over. mmmmm... 
• waking up to His voice... a few times over the last week He has graced me with a phone call first thing in the morning, waking me up and making my day just THAT much easier to face. i don't think He realizes how much He helps me... it goes back to making me feel like a little kid again... like, in the evenings before, when He tells me He's going to ring in the morning i crawl into bed and snuggle in with my 'mink' blanket and just can't sleep. it's like when you were young and you couldn't fall asleep on christmas eve for all the excitement of santa and his magical sleigh... urgh, that just makes me sound gay, doesn't it? 

things that i heart that i don't want to write about? 

carmex, lush products, planning parcels, louisa, julie west, janey, jaacq, taking baths, popping spots, getting emails, facebook updates, doing my makeup, payday, my new mobile, taxidermy, planning my move back to america, cold pizza, knowing that work is falling apart without me, lists, the eels, danish photos, the fact that my ring line from my wedding ring is almost gone, my tattoos, planning my next tattoos, playing the 'i love you more' game, texting, taking photos, my blue hairs, planning crafts, my dymo machine, my external hard drive, desperate housewives, felt, etc...

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so, things have been... OKAY. things could be better, things could be worse.

i went to the GP today to see if i am 'fit to return to work' and the outcome was that they wanted me off for at least another two weeks. post-GP i decided to prance into work to give them my sick note and sort out some things that had fallen apart since i've been gone. i sat and chatted with judith for a while and then was told by multiple people how sickly and thin i look, which was nice.

just after i left workies i got a phone call from my consultant saying, and i quote, '...as far as i'm concerned, to hell with work, we need to get you better.' he is referring me to the day hospital and, well, we'll see what happens from there. i will have an assessment and see what they suggest. dr gillespie is really the best thing that could have happened to me. he's so pro-active about my care and has helped me more over the last five months than dr denny did in the three years i saw him. so, hopefully i will have my assessment at the day hospital this week and see where we are from there.

let's see...  with my time off i'm being encouraged to try and get out and do things as much as possible, so i am planning to have a serious playdate with pow pow this week and MAYBE go see my lee lee soon. we'll see though. i need to start saving monies for serious now in preparation for... well... for a lot of things. danishvist, christmas, moving house, moving back to america... i just need to save money.

meh, there we are... danie in a nutshell.

you touch me... i hear the sound of mandolins...

oh sleepy. oh danie is so sleepy. He woke me up this morning, so i will let the fact that i was out of bed before ten pass.

i was a big, fat ball of emo last night, leaving Him to be a dancy, prancy creature to try and cheer me up, not realizing that was not a possibility. sometimes i just need to feel down. i know it sounds silly, but it just do.  sometimes i need to feel weepy, sad and emo. last night saw that in full effect. He kept pulling faces and being very silly, but i was just having none of it

it's not like this fabulous ball of emo materializes for no reason. oh, there is ALWAYS a reason. last night it came in the shape of jerk-face. he had stayed the night at man-face's the previous night and came home with a big, fat love-bite on his neck and a cocky attitude i wasn't in the mood for. he stormed into my room, took the phone from me, laid on my  bed and proceeded to make numerous phone calls. post-telephone calls he then decided that would be the best time to make fun of the delightful photo of i have of Him on my desktop and tell me that my decision to go back with Him was a bad one and i was only doing it to cling onto my youth and not actually grow up. after that point was thoroughly reiterated he moved on to the fact that i never do anything around the house and more-or-less just told me i was lazy and useless.

now, despite the fact that this conversation was ever-so uplifting and fun, i pleaded for him to just go and leave me alone. he sat with a smug little look on his face for a short period, sniggered and walked out.


cunt

i now know that i need to be out. we promised we'd stay in the house together until it didn't feel right anymore and it really doesn't. it just feels like poison. it feels ugly and like every day i stay in this house i lose a little bit more of my dignity and self-worth. my plan is to see my birthday through and then get out.

now, it is important for everyone to know that my decision to move out is not solely based on the fact that i live with someone with no tact or respect for me... it is important to know that something magical and fabulous and more important than anything ever in the world will be taking place in the next three months that is prompting me to find a little place for a danie to reside. this magical thing came to light yesterday when He told me that an opening had come up for leave and He was going to need a favour from me. He is filling in paperwork to get his passport so's He can come and see a danie in england! that's right, nine years of waiting will have finally paid off in the next three months. He will be coming to see me for two glorious weeks of tourism, prancing and OMGSOMUCHLOVE!

when He initially told me that He might be coming, i did not get too excited. i have been diligently trained over the last nine years to never, EVER count of Him for anything. He tends to make bad decisions and break my heart on a fairly regular basis. i told Him that i would not get excited until the likelihood was over 85%. yesterday it was at 68.487%.

i woke up this morning to the sound of His voice telling me that He was offered a leave-date of November 3rd (!!) and did i have more information about how Kasey (of american, glorious wonder) got into england without a passport. i said i wasn't sure and couldn't he just ask someone there. we then glee'd for a while and i got online to begin an investigation. an investigation into how one american soldier stationed in iraq could make his way to england sans passport. several hours and many MANY phone calls to the american embassy later, we have decided that we will wait until danie has moved out, that way we can have a wee little nest where there will be no awkwardness or horror.at this time, the percentage was at 84.


so there you have it, danie will begin her 25th year on this planet with a visit from the boy who set her heart on fire nine years ago. she will show Him all her favourite parts of england and prance like she's never, ever pranced in her life.

it is all so... god... there are literally no words. like, the thought of seeing Him again. i constantly wonder what it will be like. i've not seen Him in real life since March 6th 2002. what will it all be like? i dreamed about it the other night. i saw Him but He didn't see me, so i watched Him... wondering if it was real. everything else in the world was non-existent. i just can't imagine what it will be like to be breathing the same air as Him again and just generally existing in the same space as Him again.

**sigh**

He has now bumped the percentage to 85, which SHOULD make me excited, but i won't be excited until i know He has His passport and has a date planned.

well, that's it... danie is gleeful about some things and down about others... 100 cupcakes to bake tomorrow, which will be VERY exciting. MANY photos will occur.

you just keep me hanging on...

oh my... weeks upon weeks, huh? it seems like they're all blending together at the moment into one big ball of... i don't even know what... something big, daunting and oddly beautiful. the week has seen me get my own computer set up (as christopher does not want his time with man-face interrupted anymore), seen me stay up later than anything ever for nightime chats and has seen me get a special phone call from iraq... all of these and more to be listed in my things i heart this tuesday!

• mental health professionals... i know i go on about them a lot, but today i had an appointment. it was my appointment for CBT... well... COMPASSIONATE SELF GROUP THERAPY. i went to the appointment not knowing more than what the brief letter had said... the general gist claiming that there will be a group starting soon that will assist people in finding ways to cope with personal emotional problems in a 'safe' environment. my first thought is... GROUP?! um... no thanks. i HATE the thought of it. i hate the thought of having to sit in a giant room with lots of people and talk about my issues and listen to theirs... i just want a safe place where i can go talk to one person and only have to worry that that one person will be going home to talk about the 'crazy american' that was in their office that day (you can say that it doesn't happen, but people ALWAYS talk about things... they just get out of it by not saying names). the day started badly actually yesterday... i got up at early'o'clock and started making my way to the locale, ringing into work to check what time i had put my appointment as on my calendar... judith then informed me that my appointment was not until today. SO today i made my way there... still not remembering what time the appointment was. i arrived an hour early and sat. all the magazines were from over a year ago and i was cold and wet so i settled in with my current book friend and read for the next fifty minutes. just after my arranged appointment time the doctor came in and called me into another room. she was a very fabulous woman with beautiful brown hairs and quite possibly the shortest skirt i've ever seen a mental health professional wear in my life. we sat and she immediately turned into a giant ball of lovely. she apologised for the room being so large and said that she had some letters from my consultant but would rather just get the information from me. within the first five minutes we had covered the sordid details of my upbringing (me having to care from my mum from a young age and my father never being around). she pulled a lot of sad faces that made me feel she was either genuinely moved by my story or that she was just putting on a really good show to make it look like she cared more than she did. we talked for an hour and she told me how she was impressed that i had such a strong insight into my own problems and that the main reason i might be beneficial to the group is as a role model. we then delved a little deeper and she came to the conclusion that i do a lot of the things i do for love... i bake, crochet, go out of my way for people because i feel if i don't, they may not love me... she asked me if that sounded accurate and i was loathe to admit that yes, it was... i had never really thought of it that way, but i really do... i am forever doing things, going out on a limb, forgiving people. i am forever exhausting myself in fear that if i don't, i won't ever speak to those people... she reckons the group would help me in that aspect. to help me realize i need to let those people go because i am only exhausting myself, which i don't deserve. she also wants to refer me to the day hospital because i've not been eating or sleeping. she said she'd at least like to see me go to an assessment and i wouldn't have any obligations from there. ho-hum. we'll see.
  
• OMG MILK! literally, i cannot get enough milk at the moment. i can drink it forever and never, ever get tired of it. i don't understand why i go through such serious phases of it, but MAN when i do, i can't stop.
  
• Changing my surname! so, there are plans afoot... it's not for certain, but i am really keen on changing my surname once the divorce is final. my name, IF i so choose to change it, will end up being Danie Honeybun. **squee**
• really special phone calls!! now, typically when my mobile goes and it's a number i don't know, i don't answer it. i hate telemarketers and telesurveys, so i try to avoid them at all cost. last night though, when my mobile went, i looked at the number and my very first instinct was to answer it... i didn't know the number and it was after eight... i don't know why i DID end up answering it. as soon as i picked up i heard someone say 'it's a voice!' and then a rustle. i immediately thought to hang up, but my interest was piqued. i said hello again and heard, in the most glorious of voices, 'is that an american accent?' this telephone call would prove to be in one of the top three most special phone calls of all time. this phone call was to be the call that made me feel slightly less depressed and want to eat more. this phone call was from Iraq. it was Him! it was His voice and it was Him! He had been going from line to line for the last ten minutes so He could hear my voice and i could hear His. the following fifty minutes and four seconds were a flurry of emotion, excitement and glee as we talked about how i was going to beat Him up and we were going to be the best flatmates in the whole, wide world. it was like the last nine years hadn't happened and we talked like we did that first night. we joked and laughed and it was just amazing. i could have literally died happy after that phone call.
• watching people sleep! i have ALWAYS had a thing for watching people sleep. i used to watch my mum, buddy, chris and Him. i find something so magical and relaxing about watching people sleep. the sleep-ee is just so peaceful and angelic, so when He came online last night and said He was going to leave the lights on for me, i was excited. He left the lights on and went to bed. i had only planned to watch for about ten minutes but those ten minutes soon turned into forty, which soon turned into a hour, which soon turned into two. it was so strange. my mobile kept going or i kept coughing and i got all antsy, not wanting to wake Him, forgetting that He is so many miles away that He never could have woken up via my interruptions. even as i typed Him an email and watched him sleep, i was typing as quietly as i could, so as to not disrupt him. how silly is that? it is so calming... watching the chest rise and fall as they slumber.
• my bear ears! i never really gave them the full appreciation they deserved, but they are incredible.
• Elbow... it was just a brief status update that made me look into them. my friend alex was musing about why she hadn't noticed their album 'the seldom seen kid' before now. i immediately looked up the lyrics to some of the songs from the album and fell in love. fell hard and fast in love. since being drawn in by their lyrics i have been drawn in by a series of videos where they recorded with the BBC Concert Orchestra. literally, i was up all night saturday watching all of the videos and falling harder than i have ever fallen in my life. i LOVE strings and his voice is just... wow.

• that 1 guy! for fuck's sake! when He suggested them to me i was slightly dismissive but now i will never, EVER doubt Him or his musical suggestions. if you have not fallen in love with him via my facebook yet, go forth and love him.
• my blue hairs! after a great deal of umm'ing and ahhh'ing about it, i finally took the plunge and stopped being blond. perhaps it was because of my mood or perhaps it was because it was one of only six colours i have in the cupboard, but i went for blue and love it in a hardcore way.
  
• impromptu prances with friends! after my appointment today i thought i'd drop in to see hannah. after appropriate amounts of cuddles we chatted about Him and jerk-face and all other daniedrama. it was fun and delightful. i hung around until her sig-oh (dave of the wondrous dreadlocks and singing voice) arrived with alastair in tow. alastair gave me one of his trademark amazingcuddles and i was suitably delighted and prepared to go home. dave then insisted that i prance out to ASDA (wal mart) with him and alastair as something to do with the afternoon. after MUCH persuasion i obliged and oh how we pranced! it is always quite fun to go out to one of the HUGE supermarkets and just run amok, which we did, beginning in the halloween isle. i heart ASDA.
  

other things i heart in a less-informative fashion are as follows: grammar, watching people's faces when they play drums, brushing my teeths, the videos He's made for me, planning parcels for people, stripey tops, my cleavage, janey, the smell of old books, getting letters from my grandma, making mega-mixes for people, dane cook, when plans come together, dresden dolls, planning my future, talking to ashley, my giant headphones, etc...

great crap

1.What's the last mistake you made?
thinking that this separation was going to be easy.

2. Is the sun shining?
not even a little bit... it is a typical english fall day. shitty and overcast.

3. Can you successfully blow up and tie a balloon?
oh yes. AND fast!

4. Do you like text messaging?
constantly. i heart it... and i heart being the fastest texter ever.

5. Are you having a good/bad hair day?
my hair and i have an agreement, i never give it any reason to be unhappy and it does the same for me. whilst some would define my hair as a mess at the moment, it has actually been trained to stand up in all the right places at the right times.

6. What was your last expensive purchase?
ohhh... expensive... um... perhaps my external hard drive, but that wasn't THAT much money. i will be making much more substantial purchases over the next couple of weeks... things like a new computer, new monitor and a deposit on a new flat.

7. Are you wearing any make-up right now?
none at all.

8. What are your plans for later?
um, i plan to crochet a tiny giraffe and chat with danish, try and eat something, listen to music and perhaps watch the last three episodes of roseanne.

9. Is your cell phone fully charged?
it appears to be... there are three bars, which typically denotes more than 80%.

10. Is there any drama within your life.
oh yes... big time.

11. What is a song they need to stop playing on the radio?
to be honest, i am not sure. i never listen to the radio.

12. Are you content with life right now?
eh, bits of it... once things become a bit more settled then i think i'll be okay. some parts are horrid but other parts are amazingly magical.

13. Does anyone like you?
i think so.

15. What did you do for new years?
ohhh... good question. nothing. we sat at home and most likely went to bed before midnight.

16. Ever been kissed under mistletoe?
yeah, a couple Christmases ago i bought some and hung it. chris was pissy because i hung it and then demanded he come into the room to see what i had done. long story short? we kissed.

17. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
Would I ever NOT?

18. Ever done a random act of kindness?
yeah, i like to help people do things.

19. Do your toe nails have nail polish on them?
indeed... beautiful blue with magical glitter.

20. When’s the last time you shaved your legs?
four days ago.

21. Last curse word you said was?
shite.

22. Ever been in the middle of a love triangle?
yeah.

23. Are your lips chapped?
well they WEREN'T! now they are... cherry carmex to the rescue!

24. Do you own an iPod?
oh yes and i loves it more than most things.

25. Did you have a dream last night?
yeah. i woke up reeling quite heavily from it... i've been dreaming very vividly lately. i dreamed i went to Basra to see dane. he took me around and introduced me to people and we tried to take photos of us together in certain places on base. we kissed and held one another. once i had to go i sat outside the base. sat there and watched him work... someone came by and asked what i was doing and i said that i was in love with one of the soldiers in there... i can only assume by their reaction that they didn't realize it was a US army base camp, as they went nuts and so did the camp. the camp immediately decided to abandon and move on and everyone got on a huge bus... i chased after the bus and shouted to dane how much i loved him, and he got out and said he were staying with me forever. we walked and kissed... and then we went into this tent and danced and held each other.

26. Are you mad at anyone?
generally just dissappointed.

27. Who is the randomest person you know?
perhaps michael... literally, i just met him one night and fell in love with him. he used to be an actor in an old Australian soap opera and now tours for mama mia... yeah, THAT random.

28. Have you made an igloo before?
i once attempted at digging a tunnel through the snow. i generally just ended up wet and unhappy with som only a wee dog could fit into.

29. Done any spring cleaning lately?
a bit... despite the lack of spring, i've decided to clear out my life. divorces will do that to you.

30. Anything bothering you?
lots of things... the fact i haven't eaten more than 200 calories in one day for over 10 days, the fact that christopher is planning to meet his new female sunday, the fact that danish isn't online, the fact that i am so cold.... i could go on forever.

31. What are you looking forward to?
making my tiny giraffe and speaking to danish later.

32. Did you wish for anything last night on 11:11?
ummm... no. i was arguing with christopher.

33. Do you drink coffee on a regular basis?
i did when we first got the coffee machine but i got bored of it fairly quickly.

34. Put your iPod on shuffle whats the first song?
'girl from the north country' by the eels

35. What jewelry are you wearing?
my starfish necklace, four plugs and one earring.

36. Ate any exotic food lately?
i had a lot of exciting and what most would define as exotic foods when i went to dim sum in london a couple of weeks ago. baby squids and su mai. yum yum!

37. How many contacts do you have on AIM/MSN?
eh, like three, i never use either of those IM services.

38. Are you easily amused?
i can be... it depends on who i'm talking to and what the topic is...

39. Can you lick your elbow?
nobody can, it's impossible.

40. Do you know this song “we stay fly no lie you know this”?
not even a little bit.

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List 10 musical artists you like, in no specific order (do this before reading the questions below)!

1. magnetic fields
2. andrew jackson jihad
3. concertina turner
4. regina spektor
5. new found glory
6. marilyn manson
7. richard cheese
8. the ataris
9. gogol bordello
10. ali pow3rs


-What was the first song you ever heard by 6?
'lunchbox. '

-What is your favourite song of 8?
ohhh... i'd have to say 'i remember you'

-What kind of impact has 1 left on your life?
they have completely changed my love of music... they are the single most amazingly beautiful band on the planet.

-What is your favourite lyric of 5?
'Remember the time we wrote our names upon the wall'

-How many times have you seen 4 live?
none, but i plan to this next year...

-What is your favourite song by 7?
oh god... i think i have to go with 'down with the sickness.' it's classic.

-Is there any song by 3 that makes you sad?
all of them make me sad and happy at the same time. if i HAD to name one it would be 'the pirate song' purely because that was the song that jerry and i really synced together in. he and i were closest when we played this song.

-What is your favourite song by 9?
oh god... um... 'american wedding' or '60 revolutions'

-When did you first get into 1?
about two years ago... christopher had been listening to them for ages and kept telling me i'd like them but i refused to until i heard '100,000 fireflies' and fell in love.

-What is your favourite song by 4?
'samson'

-How many times have you seen 9 live?
four!! yay!

-Is there a song by 2 that makes you sad?
'fly my ass' does... it's just so beautiful.

-What is your favourite song of 1?
oh jesus... i'd have to say 'epitaph for my heart.' if you haven't heard it, go fucking listen to it right now. it is unbelievable.

-How did you become a fan of 10?
the instant i heard him singing in my lounge five years ago.

i would build a fort to protect you from the wind

Who was your last text from?
christopher... asking me what i was doing tonight, presumably so he could have free time to contact his female friend...
Is confidence cute?
i guess it CAN be... but not if it goes overboard... i HATE cocky people.

Your last ex is on the side of the road, on fire. What do you do?
wonder why he's in england and go over to him and cuddle his face off with a big blanket until the fire quells. then i'd get some aloe vera and put it on any serious burns.

What is your relationship status?
separated... soon to be divorced... yay for me!

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
just about ten minutes ago. christopher was getting in my face shouting at me and i just wanted him to go...

What are you craving right now?
sleep, a fag, a cuddle, the desire to be hungry, for christopher to come to his senses and stop being such a fucking jerk...

What is the last beverage you had?
water... the last anything i had was water.

What are you listening to right now?
'epitaph for my heart' by the magnetic fields... their music kills at the moment.

Have you ever been led on?
indeed. it's not nice. lucky for you i'm such a forgiving creature.

Do you drink energy drinks?
no way jose! i literally hate them...

When is your birthday?
november 14th. hooray for it only being 30 days away!! yay!

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
indeed. perhaps dreaming more than thinking, but yes... i'll fill you in tomorrow.

If the last person you kissed said that you were the only one they wanted, would you believe them?
no... not at all.

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
i wouldnt've have thought so. it depends on who it is. like, i'm not the kind of girl who goes kissing people willy nilly.

Would it hurt seeing the person you last kissed, kissing someone else?
more than anyone could ever imagine... divorces suck. it hurt pretty hard when i saw him kissing some random female when we were still pretending to be together, and i imagine this would feel fairly similar.

Honestly, if you could go back 1 month and change something would you?
i'd have told chris it was over sooner... or moved out sooner... i would've saved more money and most likely booked a train to my lee lee sooner.

Are you excited about anything today?
my next danish chat... which should be at some point later this morning...

Have you ever kissed an ex after breaking up?
yeah... i kiss chris sometimes, by force.

Do you currently have a hickey?
no way... they are so trashy.

What's the longest you've ever talked on the phone?
like, seven hours? it was three nights after i met dane and we chatted for ages and he sang to me.

How many people are you texting?
right this second? nobody... there are some people you could say i am 'mid conversation' with... as in i have sent them a text and am awaiting a reply, but other than that, nobody. you'd have to be pretty crafty to be able to text AND fill one of these out at the same time.

Let's be honest, have you ever been played by someone?
oh yes... and he apologies.

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with an M?
not that i can recall, not romantically anyway... like, i've kissed maral LOADS of times... but that's because she's super beautiful.

Do you always answer your phone?
typically. i heart phone calls and talking to people.

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
oh yes, many, many times... it's fun.

Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
not that he'd admit it, but yes... a long time ago.

Is there a girl/boy you want?
maybe... :)

Where were you last night?
here, i'm always here at the moment. thus is the plight of someone who's in the middle of a separation and is having to watch her 'other half' fraternize with another person.

What is today's date?
october 15th

When you're at the grocery store do you use the self-checkout?
i tend to... i particularly enjoy it because i can muse about how much of a better checker-outer i am than anyone the store actually employs.

Anyone crushing on you?
mahaps? :)

If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
it depends... what kind of wilderness are we talking and what have i got with me? if i have some sort of industrious friend with me, then yes... if not, then no.

What is your favorite color?
glitter.

Do you like your parents?
i love my mum SO much and my dad is a bit of a drifter, so i have no feelings either way.

Do you secretly like someone?
i openly like LOTS of someones... some more than others.

Do you look more like your mom or your dad?
my mum.

How long does it take you to shower?
OMG! when i actually have access to a shower i take aaaages. especially if it's a really good one that has a really brutal setting that beats the shit out of me.

What did you do on New Year's Eve?
ohhh... i think last year we just sat quietly around the house.

Can you speak any other language than English?
i can understand spanish when it's spoken to me, but i can't actually speak any of it.

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
oh gosh... i'd say about eight hours... i slept big time last night.

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
always!

Are you scared of flying?
not at all. i heart it.

What do you sleep in?
typically, whatever i've worn that day... well, whatever TOP i've worn and then a random pair of jammy bottoms or leggings.

Do you like funny people or serious people?
i like both equally. they both have their strong points.

What do you have planned for tonight?
by 'tonight' i will take it that you mean the tonight of this thursday the 15th of October. i plan to sit around, read, talk to dane, watch some telly maybe? write lee lee a letter. crochet a tiny giraffe.

Is the last person you kissed older than you?
yeah.

Do you have a favorite item of clothing?
i have MANY favourite items of clothing... many, many, many!

Do you like messages or comments better?
i like a bit of both. i just like it when people take the time to contact me.

Last movie you saw in theaters?
zombieland with my pow pow

Last thing you ate?
a piece of bread... or half a piece of bread.

Are you happy right now?
no.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleeping like woah.

Are you left handed?
oh no... not even a little.

Was the first person you talked to today male or female?
male, it was christopher. but that was a very incoherent talk... if you mean the first talk i remember, it was danish.

When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
yesterday. in the bath.

Is there someone you'd like to fix things with?
a few, yeah... meh...

What are you not looking forward to?
i kinda already answered this, but i'll answer it again. i'm looking forward to my danish chat, looking forward to seeing what he will reply to my email and i am mostly looking forward to making my tiny giraffe.

Have you ever seen your best friend cry and how do you feel about that?
i think i've seen all my best friends cry... it's not nice, but i like to be there for them if they want me to be.

Have you ever seen a zebra?
In a zoo, yeah...

Has anyone disappointed you recently?
oh yes... oh yes, yes, yes.

How late did you stay up last night & why?
i went to bed at ten last night... it was an early night because danish had to go to bed and i had nothing better to do...

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?
oh yes.

Where is your father right now?
in some state in america that starts with an 'm'

Are you a morning person or a night?
it totally depends on what swing of my emotional rollercoaster i'm on at that particular time. at the moment i'm a night person.

Are you there for your friends?
indeed!

Are you a forgiving person?
to a fault.

Are you a jealous person?
insanely.

Do you wish somebody would call you? Why?
yeah. i'd like to hear dane's voice... i'd like to speak to paige.

What's annoying you right now?
the fact that christopher is trying to woo a female just in the other room.

Do you love someone?
oh yes... lots and lots of someones. again, one or two more than others... maybe only one.

How many true friends do you have?
like, three?